My Halloween

My last minute decision was to dress up to hand out candy (I decided that it would be more fun that just putting the candy out and trusting each kidd-o to "Take One Only". This is my creation (and ensuing photo shoot). Many thought I was a princess, many thought I was "so pretty", "beautiful" etc... (quite an ego boost). I was in fact (after deliberating while putting together my costume) the White Queen from "Alice in Wonderland". Granted I leave much to be desired but it was fun to dress up! It was also fun to get to use my wedding dress again (no one need to know that I could barely zip it up...but I guess you all know now, ha!) It was fun!

But you know what was so dissappointing? I think I almost had the most creative costume. I saw a lot of ninjas, vampires and witches (all store bought). I saw a total of 4 homemade costumes total out of the 200 kids (I gave away that much candy, so easy math there). The taker was a girl dressed up as Halloween Barbie (complete with pink cardboard box with "Matel"and UPC code) very cute and creative!

And unfortunately I didn't have as much integrity as my father who would have never handed out candy to un-costumed teenagers carrying pillowcases. (Next year I promise to chanel my father more, but I did succeed in making silly comments to kids such as "I'm allergic please don't sting me" to a bee and "Did you see the Joker, he's right around the corner! SAVE ME!!" to Batman) I am just so disenchanted with it all. I remember how excited I would be to choose my costume and try it on for fitting as my mom made it and finally being able to wear it for Trick-Or-Treat. I had a total of ONE store bought costume and that was because of a family crisis that year, otherwise all were home made and unique.

I PROMISE TO MY FUTURE CHILDREN THAT YOU WILL NEVER HAVE A BORING STORE BOUGHT CHEAPY COSTUME EVER!!!! I also promise to remember the spirit of Halloween as a youngster. I saw so many unhappy parents yelling at their children (so sad)!!

That is/was my Halloween. I ran out of candy again and had to close up shop an hour early (but I think I had the rush) and I will never use spray hair dye again! SO PAINFUL to brush out and just totally not worth it! And I really hope my Hubby can be there next time, I've been alone for 2 years and he needs to pull up the slack! ha!

Way to Long

I used to have no limit to my posting. I would come here and VENT about my awful job situation and it seemed like life never went in the right direction. I was worried about money and my job and my pets and then...POOF! I get let go from one job, hired at another and I am suddenly out of things to blog about.

Instead of spending my day dealing with stress, I find myself looking forward to going to work! I love my new teaching gig! I find myself searching for new ideas, using more innovative teaching strategies, IT IS AWESOME! (and surprisingly, I worry less about money, now that I am making less...hmmm...?)

We had a fundraiser/festival at school over the weekend and I volunteered to get pie thrown at me and ::drumroll:: I enjoyed it! At my old establishment I would have hated the idea and loathed having to spend any extra time there. At this new place the idea of whipped topping sticking to my hair is no biggy. It excites me to be so happy!

It seems like things are finally going positively...or is it that I just finally let go?

Over the summer I experienced an awesome event in New Orleans and I think it was a turning point in my faith life. There was a song that was played and its premise was that it is okay to doubt God because he is big enough to handle that. I doubt God daily...I am human and doubting is part of the fallen world...but I find myself so much more comfortable with trusting in God's plan. He's got it figured out and I just gotta let him take the reigns.

I think that's what happened lately. I let God take the reigns. Sure I still try to nudge one way or the other but I am getting better at turning to My Father.

And the fact that my Hubby and dog have noticed a difference in my stress and happiness level is awesome. A happy Hubby (and dog) is a happy me and a happy me is GOOD!

P.S. It is also really awesome that I can talk about Jesus daily in my classroom. I can yell about His love for us at the top of my lungs and its okay! I can dance to Audio Adrenalines "Big House" and the kids dig it! I can pray at any given moment and not be looked at strangely. I can be me.